Fix it

It's a kind of wired mind mechanics, someone up there have got the wiring wrong. There is a constant conflict that the brain howls..... this is not it !!!

Common men puts it across as, the other side of the grass is always greener.

I am between jobs now, to be more precise, I have chucked the one on hand and hunting for another. For some reason I have now started to believe my HR friend who talks the philosophy of employment, "Have one and kick the other". My little Gray matter had a different take, it said, you need to empty yourself to cling onto the other. Result, whatever I am now. Can we call jobless?, maybe!!

Now the issue is, I always wanted time off from work for the holistic maintenance of mind, body and soul. Morning walks on the wood-side, a healthy cook your food regime, a simple movie to call it a weekend, recreation offered by Sadguru, a pilgrimage to add bliss and subtract ihajanmani, janma  janmaanthareva sampathidha, kayaka, vachika, manasika, Brahma hatyadi, mahapathaka, upapaathaka, sanchaya nivaaranaartham, a mere exaggeration of the accumulated bad omen, and more importantly no proper SLEEP TIME.

Worse, when I have all the time in the world to practice the said above, the restlessness creeps in to hooked on to be called as,  EMPLOYED. It's been a month now, and I am busy doing nothing!!!

The frequency of body being under the shower has reduced, but the bum always had its share. Food has become 1 and half meal a day. Brews in the morning are preferring the late evenings, but the specification remained same, HOT!!! My bed has taken a dent, probably any quality of mattress would be, if subjected to a little less than three figure, for most part of the day and night, and I still do not have a quality sleep. Inner engineering suddenly seems to be heavy on the pocket.

So, what do I have, a good rationale logical precise facts for not having a life that I always wanted. Wow, Eureka.

Someone rightly said, 50% of the problem is solved if you have got to know the real cause of distress. I have been analyzing, the present and similar circumstances of the past and found a root cause and a  predominant fact that has been common throughout, and that is ME.

All the more it becomes more evident by the statement, "Only I can be the hindrance for my success."

I have got to fix that me which has denied the other me to do all that I can, to be all that I can.

The solutions to the future lies in the past. Happy fixing!!!!